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Fight For Life

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Today, I will cry but I will not die
for I still dream of soaring high.

I will weep but it doesn’t mean I give up
For sufferings are not reasons enough.

I will pause and take a rest
Find a courage to win this test.

See the sun shines and birds singing
of hope and life that’s truly amazing.

I guess, I was too much weaker
to fight hard and be braver.

Not today, not anymore
as I realized that in life
there’s so much more
to savor.

P.S. I have been gone for a while due to some personal and health reason. I wrote this one simple piece after what I was going through. I learned a lot from it. I’m glad to be here and writing again. ❤️

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Welcome To Reality

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The reality where life is underrated
and love is taken for granted.

The reality where friends offer nothing but lies
and even wear a sweet disguise.

The reality where families throw hate
at one another; No, this cannot be fate.

The reality where a tiny innocent soul
is deprived of his right to live
as well as his pure love to give.

The reality where nations are holding grudges
Yes! They already have forgotten what humanity is.

The reality where throwing stones at each other
has more fun than lending each other a helping hand.

This is the reality that gives us so many realizations
and for the fact fewer expectations.

So I say, welcome to reality.

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Whispered Fear

I am impregnable.
I am brave.
These are the things
I used to believe.
I can face the world alone
Fight the battle on my own.
This was just pure imagination.
I stand strong that nobody
can ever break me down.
I don’t need a hand from
people around.
Who would have thought
on my knee, I’d fall down?
Inside my head were
thoughts unspoken;
Inside my heart
were whispered fears.
Afraid to be heard
Scared to be judged
by spectators who
all the time prejudge.
Silent thoughts screaming
to be voiced out
I lay in bed
tears running down
Gently, I covered my mouth.
Petrified that they might hear
the whispered fear I always bear.

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Lost In My Own World

Living in a dingy world
where paths are all tangled,
I tried to take a hold
of a life that’s been long troubled.

A chaotic world of a thousand dreams
seeking its way, waiting to be seen.
I took a breath and tried to strive
with a heart that hopes to see the light.

For many years, I’ve been in this place
Still, why can’t I find solace?
I am a captive in this dungeon
where only I live alone.

It is an endeavor to find the way
so finally I could be free.
I am lost in my own world;
it’s a story that is yet untold.

Note: These past days, my anxiety and depression was through the roof and because of that, I wasn’t able to focus on writing. I had breakdowns and I was really exhausted — physically, mentally and emotionally. I was drained. And yes, I was suicidal. I am. I always feel like there’s no way for me to get out and find light at the end of this tunnel I am in right now but despite, I choose to continue living. One day, I will have my own story to tell. A story of losing and winning.

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Heal As One

In this whole new ball game for us
where everybody needs to keep distant
and hide behind our masks;
emerge men’s trepidation
amidst our current condition.

This is not just my battle
as it is yours as well.

This is not the time
for selfishness and greed.

This is the time for helping
those who badly need.

We need each other’s hand
In this dilemma, together let’s withstand.
Together, let us heal as one.