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I’ll Be Over You

The pain is too heavy
that I can no longer breathe.
My eyes are too blurry
that I can no longer see bliss.
The scar is too vivid
that it reminds me of what
my kind of love is like.
I was livid
with the thought
of you leaving,
But accepting and forgiving
was indeed a much greater feeling.
I won’t hold grudges
for I know it’ll only take me nowhere,
Yet with prayers, this misery
will soon be over.
And wherever I may turn to
I can finally say I’m totally
over you.

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Dear Me

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Dear me,

I’m proud of you for surviving.
I’m proud of you for holding on.
I’m proud of you for still breathing
even when you’re already dead inside.
I’m proud of you for believing
even when you couldn’t see yourself
beyond that moment.
I’m proud of you for being here.
I’m proud of you for still choosing
to believe that God cares even
your situation said otherwise.
I’m proud of you for not giving up.
Don’t you ever give up.

I’m so proud!

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Fight For Life

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Today, I will cry but I will not die
for I still dream of soaring high.

I will weep but it doesn’t mean I give up
For sufferings are not reasons enough.

I will pause and take a rest
Find a courage to win this test.

See the sun shines and birds singing
of hope and life that’s truly amazing.

I guess, I was too much weaker
to fight hard and be braver.

Not today, not anymore
as I realized that in life
there’s so much more
to savor.

P.S. I have been gone for a while due to some personal and health reason. I wrote this one simple piece after what I’ve been going through. I learned a lot from it. I’m glad to be here and writing again. ❤️

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Lost In My Own World

Living in a dingy world
where paths are all tangled,
I tried to take a hold
of a life that’s been long troubled.

A chaotic world of a thousand dreams
seeking its way, waiting to be seen.
I took a breath and tried to strive
with a heart that hopes to see the light.

For many years, I’ve been in this place
Still, why can’t I find solace?
I am a captive in this dungeon
where only I live alone.

It is an endeavor to find the way
so finally I could be free.
I am lost in my own world;
it’s a story that is yet untold.

Note: These past days, my anxiety and depression was through the roof and because of that, I wasn’t able to focus on writing. I had breakdowns and I was really exhausted — physically, mentally and emotionally. I was drained. And yes, I was suicidal. I am. I always feel like there’s no way for me to get out and find light at the end of this tunnel I am in right now but despite, I choose to continue living. One day, I will have my own story to tell. A story of losing and winning.

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Take Me

I miss you every night and day 
that being with you is what I always pray.
I miss every hug and kiss we used to share;
Oh, I wish this feeling I could spare.

Please, take me wherever you may be
to a place where there's only you and me.
Together let us witness winter and spring;
cherish the love, the most precious thing.

Please, take me to another world
where this hand of mine, only you can hold.
I'm tired of waking up with swollen eyes;
so please, baby, take me to your paradise.